Ok, I am in a better frame of mind today. I think part of the reason I was so frustrated is that I am so freakin' (excuse my language) tired.
My iron level is still really low and all I want to do is sleep. And I am sleeping well at night. But after working all day or even yesterday doing 5 loads of laundry just exhausts me.
James and I have been eating much better and trying to take better care of ourselves. We are eliminating "white" foods, white potatoes, white pasta, white rice. We have switched to brown rice and sweet potatoes when we have them. We have wheat pasta and even wheat, low fat biscuits when I make breakfast on Sunday morning. We have added oats to our diet, oatmeal for breakfast and adding oats in things like turkey meatloaf (made with white meat turkey). While I am not a big bread eater, James eats sandwiches while he is on the road. They are just more convenient to carry when he goes out. He has switched to a 35 calorie bread. I am proud of him.
We have started growing our own vegetables. So far, the lettuce, tarragon, mint (oh my do we have mint), sage and parsley are the only thing that we have been able to harvest. So we supplement with plenty of fresh veggies to make salads with.
I know it is going to take a long time to turn us around, but it is time. I have two grandsons that love me as well as a daughter and son in law that love me also. And I have a mom that is dependent upon me to take care of her. Not to mention, my husband is my life & my love and he needs me.
But mostly I have gotten to a point with my health that I HAVE to take better care of me. My health issues are such that I have to eat better and exercise more to feel better. It won't make me well, but it will make me feel better.
I want to thank all those who left me messages. It is strange. Having people I consider to be friends that I have never met. When I was a teenager I had a pen pal in another state. I never met this person, but for two years we were extremely close (then we found BOYS and drifted apart). Having friends online is like having many, many pen pals! I delight in reading everyone's blogs and messages on my Yahoo groups. I love and applaud for you when things are going well or you finish a piece of needlework! And I have cried many many tears for those of you who have lost friends and families or who have been hurt by others. You are my friends away from home. Thank you for reading this blog and thank you for being here for me.